Monday, August 12, 2013

Final Paper

Have you ever felt like giving up? You felt like you limits have been pushed and you won't be able to exceed those limits? You’re tired, your lazy, you don't feel it anymore? Let’s face reality, we have all started something and gave up on it because we felt like we couldn't succeed. We are brought down by the negativity of others and society so we feel like we can never excel. It’s funny how we all want to progress as a whole in society and then others bring us down for the just of it. Life is full of battles, but that's not what matters. What matters is how big the battle in you is. This little boy reminded me of what it felt like to not give up. We all should take some time in our busy schedules to remind ourselves of what we are capable of.

Where do you think go this kid got this sudden rush of enthusiasm? From his parents? From school? Maybe, but wherever this vibe came from, everyone should be this determined to succeed every day. We all have obstacles to overcome. We all have things to do, goals to complete, dreams to achieve, so why not start today? It's never too late to start anything. No matter what anyone else has to has. Never let someone tell you that you can't achieve something. This boy right here probably thought he couldn't ride his bike. Once he got on and keep going he realized how easy it really was. And after he knew he did something he wasn't going to be able to do, he’s just full of joy and full of accomplishment. The little boy was passionate enough to keep trying until he learned how to ride his bike, and his privilege allows his passion to take place.

            We all experience life differently. Some of us have harder paths than others. I know I do, but I don’t let it get to me. School has been something that has definitely helped me in all my life experiences. From calculating how much the government will take away from my pay check, or from understanding the different types of philosophies and mentalities in the world. School is at the very top of my priorities. I read a book that sets a perfect example of passion and privilege. Into the Wild is a story about a Chris, a man who is unhappy and decides to leave everything behind and adventure around the U.S. by hitch hiking. Even though I don’t quite understood why he chose to do everything he did, what I do understand is that he did it for a reason. As Chris says, “everything in this world is confusing, sometimes I don’t know how to react”. He taught me to follow my passion, even if it killed me. I think that he got this sort of mentality from school. He went to a good University, he probably had a lot of good inspiring teachers who opened his mind to a whole other side of life he didn’t know about.

            Throughout the building of this essay. I have come to read and watch a lot of documentaries about education. How it shapes peoples lives. How privilege and passion are connected with one another. How different backgrounds affect people’s mentality towards education. I will show you different examples that I think are very good on reflecting how different we all are, but how similar we might also be. From the book, Into The Wild, to the student made short films by Chabot students; The Passion Project and Focusing The Lasers, and a couple of videos that show every single factor of education. Education is a very touchy subject, but after you read this essay, you will realize how much everyday things affect education.

Into The Wild is a story about a privileged boy named Christopher McCandless who decides to run away and disappear after he graduates from Emory University of Atlanta in 1990. It's a little odd that on the cover of the book it says he dies, which is like the biggest spoiler alert ever in the history of spoiler alerts. I think that John Krakauer, the author, does it on purpose. I believe that he does it in order for us to not to try and figure out how Chris died, but why he chose to do all he did. He had it made, he graduated from college, and his parents had money which meant he had money. So why did he do it? A lot of people would kill to be as privileged as he was in the book, but he chose to let it all burn to the ground as if it did not matter to him. How does the actions of Chris relate to passion and privilege?
After reading this book and after learning about the life Chris had. I was beyond mad. Who just decides to just get up one day just run away? He had already gone through college, he was set. His parents had money so he had money. Why did he decide to do it? It's as if he didn't care at all. It seems as if he didn't care about it. He also died at a very young age. He was full of privilege, he pretty much had it all. Maybe this is where the privilege and passion goes into play. Maybe he didn't want to go to school and then work for the rest of his life until he died. It's ironic how Chris ditches his car and burns all his money, but ends up getting rides from others. He also quits his first job in California when the boss man tell him "you won’t be getting paid much here". So he quit because he won't be getting paid, but he burned his money? Maybe he had some sort off monetary problem. His parents did want him to go to Harvard. Maybe that's why he ran away, so he didn't have to disappoint his parents about him not wanting to go to Harvard. He didn't even try to tel his parents that he did not want to go to Harvard so that can't be it. Maybe he didn't even want to go to school period so he decided to leave it all behind and explore. What does that make him, someone who follows their passion? Or an arrogant?
I think that Chris ended up dying because he wanted to follow his passion. Of course, he really died of hunger. What I really mean is that Chris decided to go against society’s way of living and decided to do his own thing instead. It is tragic that he dies yes, but his death has a bigger picture rather than just him dying. He didn't care about education. That was acceptable by me because it wasn't like he tried to convince others that education was not important. It might have just not been his thing, he probably didn't like school and only did it so he would get his parents off his back about it. Chris friend Westerberg tries to determine what happened to Chris that made him do all this. Westerberg says "Sometimes he tried too hard to make sense of the world... a couple of times I tried to tell him it was a mistake to get too deep into that kind of stuff". He did all this traveling and learned all these new thing for what? So he could die? It's ridiculous because first of all he was very young and had a lot of living to do and second, he died because he followed his passion. He may have been content with the actions he chose to do, but to me, it seemed like a really good waste of resources he was handed down. "When we asked him why he did all that he had done, he said he didn't need the money." said Jan Burres who picked up Chris along a Oregon highway. It's almost like when you don't finish your food and your parents remind you that others aren't as blessed to be eating the warm meal you’re eating.
We all come from different backgrounds. We are all also born with privilege, but some are born with more privilege than others. Some of us are roses that are trying to grow on concrete as Jeff Duncan-Andrade says. Education is for everyone. We all have the right to it. Education is different to everyone depending on where it stands in your family values. Some families force their kids into law school or medical school because their parents went to medical or law school and "want" their kids to be successful. Other families expect their kids to drop out of school and work in order to help the family get their basic needs. There is millions and billions of different backgrounds in the world, but there is something that can change. "You don't question its damaged pedals of course it's going to have damaged pedals it's growing in the concrete. Instead, you celebrate its tenacity and its will to reach the sun." People can overcome their conditions. Education is a way to overcome those conditions, but with all these high dropout rates, it seems almost impossible. Almost, but not impossible.

One of the reasons why people might drop out of school is because of their living status. For example, the living conditions in Oakland. "The conditions in which urban youth are growing are not natural, they are created which means they can be changed." The way kids are growing up is really messed up. Let’s have a reality check for a second. Crime is inevitable, it's a sad truth in our world that there is a lot of crime out in the streets everywhere. It's something that will always be a factor in people’s lives. It's also a bad influence that infects people like a virus, it just keeps spreading and spreading everywhere. Unfortunately, crime cannot just disappear overnight like a bad dream. Even with crime, there still is hope. It's the will inside you to let it go and move on. You must be able to forget and completely block everything out in your life and focus on what is important, your future. It's hard for everyone, it's hard for me, but if you really stick your mind to it and block out everything else in the world that you have no control over. You can overcome it and become a successful individual.

Another reason why I think people drop out of school is because they don't realize the importance of education. I think that the first influence someone has about education comes directly from education. Families with less privilege are more likely to have a shorter span of years spent in education. While families that have a lot of privilege and have capital expect and almost force their kids into college. I can say that I’m like a rose that's growing from the concrete. My parents have a very little school background. My father didn't finish high school because he had to look for a job in order to help support his family of 10 brothers and sisters. My mother did finish high school in Mexico, but also had to give up the opportunity to go to college and begin to work to support her 10 brothers and sisters. My mother later on went back to school after having me and my younger brother, but it was too late. Things were different and priorities had changed so she couldn't keep up. My mother always reminded me and said "You are blessed to live in the moment you’re in, don't become a hobo. Do the right thing and do everything correctly". One of the reasons why I decided to go to college was because I knew about education and how much in can influence someone’s life. Another big reason why I went to college was to make my parents proud. They didn't have the opportunity to go to school. They didn't have the privilege I have today. So it's almost like I’m going to school for them. I'm representing them in school, but I’m also doing for the benefit of myself. 
Even after my parent’s struggles and hardships, I give them so much respect for all they have done for me and my brothers. Even if they didn't have the opportunity to go to college, I’m not going to use that excuse to give up in school and drop out. On the other hand, I use it to motivate me even more. I'm breaking a chain that they were unfortunately tied to. It’s as if I’m trying to set them free and also doing it for myself. I also am setting up an image for my brothers to also do the right things and go to school and get good grades. We all have a different story to tell, but just because your parent’s story is unfortunate, it does not mean yours has to be the same. Don't let the past of others influence or decide your future. "Even if you’re growing in concrete, grow and reach to the top, water yourself with the resources you have." We all have a different story behind us. Some of us were fortunate enough to be born into a great amount of privilege. Most of us, unfortunately, were not. We all come from a different background, ethnicity, race, gender, and family. Something that we all do have in common is passion. We all have something we are passionate about. It may be that we are different about what we are passionate about, but, passion is passion. As Frank Turner once said, "It doesn't matter where you come from, it matters where you go". Success is something I want to achieve in life. But, how do we describe success? Does everyone have the same definition of success? Success is different in every aspect.
One of the things I want to be successful is in school. Now, being successful in school is getting to class on time, doing homework every day, studying every day, and trying my hardest every day. There might be other things that may interfere with school like, for me, soccer and work, but I try my hardest and give it everything I got. I think that education is the only way out of "the concrete" Andrade talks about so much. Education is what defines your future. Some people get lucky and become successful without education like Bill Gates, founder of Microsoft, Harvard's most successful drop out who said "I guess that makes me valedictorian of my own special class... I did the best of everyone who failed". I'm not as creative as Bill Gates is, but I know that through education I can become successful. Education can help anyone achieve their dreams and pursue their future.

Another thing that I want to be successful in is soccer. Soccer has been a very important part of my life. I know I can have a career out of it. I've been exposed a lot through soccer with my club team. I also traveled to a lot of states because of it. It's perfect because soccer keep me in check when I tend to be lazy in school. I'd love to play professional soccer, it's one of my goals and dreams. It's really hard to be pro at anything we all know that. A lot of famous soccer players that got injured and were not allowed to play anymore didn't have anything to fall back on because they dropped out of school to become a full time soccer player. I don't want to make the same mistake as them. I want to have something to fall back on just in case I do go pro and end up with a career ending injury. "Education first", says my coach Tony Igwe, "You are all ambassadors of this school, but you all know you need to focus on your studies as well, get a degree". I know education is above all, if I didn't know any better, I would have dropped out of school and would have focused on soccer a long time ago. I'm lucky and blessed enough to have more than one plan though. I’ll just have to work hard and wish for a little luck.
Privilege and who you are is definitely tied together. Some are lucky to be born into a life full of privilege. Others, like me, can't complain. I can't sit and complain about how it sucks to be unprivileged as others. If I were to do that, I might miss the opportunity to become privileged. I can't dwell on it and try to find out with me out of everyone else that would get me nowhere and make me look like everyone else. I want to tell stories to my grandchildren and explain to them how hard it was to grow up, but how I manage to get it all together and move forwards and not backwards. We all have the opportunity to move forward, only the lazy sit there and wonder when their time will come.
Stepping out of high school, I thought college was going to be hard, but not this hard. College to me has been anything but easy. It has been a very eye opening experience so far and has expanded my mentality a significant. All the countless amount of hours spent doing homework and studying for tests. The loss of sleep due to all those countless hours of homework. Feeling tired at soccer practice because of all those countless hours of homework. Stressing about how to pay for college. Which impact my performance of game days. If I could use a quote to describe college it would be this quote by Joseph P. Kennedy, "When the going gets tough, the tough gets going". I'm just sitting here wondering when the tough will get going! Being a full time student athlete and not being financially privileged or even privileged is not easy. There's nothing I can do about that. The only thing I can do is "have the tenacity to grow in the concrete and reach out towards the sun." I can only make the hours count.

One of the things that has definitely made college hard for me is capital. College is very expensive. Paying for classes, paying for textbooks, paying for school supplies and school necessities it’s very expensive. Financial aid is a lot of help, but it won't cover other things like food, clothing, and basic everyday needs. In order to be able to afford college you might need to get a part time job. So you get a part time job, which usually starts paying you at eight dollars. So you being to get money and having a little extra cash in your pocket. Don't forget you need to pay for gas for your car to get to school or to get to work, and pay your insurance, and pay any car maintenance. Maybe you need to get up really early to catch the bus and buy your monthly bus pass. You have all this going on, and you suddenly realize... When are you going to have time to do your homework? When are you going to have time to study for that big math final? It is hard to try and balance everything out. Oh I forgot to add, when are you going to sleep and eat? "I hardly have time for anything, I am under a tight schedule." said my friend Juan, who works, is a full time student, and is an athlete at Chabot College. "I'm really stressed about everything, I just need to do whatever is in front of me and not worry about the rest until I have to do the rest later". Statistics show that "the annual family income of more than 47% of undergraduates is less than $40,000." according to the The Chronicle of High Education's almanac. So, you see that a lot of students don't have another option. They must work in order to pay for college. That has certainly been the situation for me.

Another thing that has made my college experience difficult has to be being a athlete. I am currently a soccer player for Chabot's Men’s soccer team. It also has not been easy. I've played soccer since I discovered I was pretty good at it, I was 12. Soccer has been something that has helped me through all my years of school. Since high school, I've had to keep a certain grade point average or higher in order to become eligible to play. So, it has been like a little reminder in my head to do another hour of homework. Playing soccer for Chabot has been great. We practice every day for 3 hours. We have our home games which are on Fridays and our away games which are on Tuesdays. Away games are better, but the traveling is horrible! Being stuck in traffic at 7 p.m. after playing a full 90 minutes is not fun. I always remember sitting on the bus complaining on all the homework I have to do when I get home, and being physically drained does not help! All the running and fitness we have to do is astonishing, but you have to do what you have to do. My coach always reminds us that studies come first over everything, so that thought always runs in my head while I’m running. I know that playing soccer has a very big impact in school because I can get scouted to a 4 year University. So I know I have to give it my best on and off the field.

One strategy I have in order to be successful in college is to forget about my privilege and do what I can. I come from a hard background. I left my hometown to go to college. I left because I knew there was going to be too many distractions at home. I have cousins that took a years off after high school to be lazy and do whatever they want. I ask them now if they regret it and one of them said "yes, I should have just kept my momentum going. Now, I’m playing catch up while almost all my friends are done with school." I also left because I wanted my family not to worry about me. I have two younger brothers. One just started middle school and the other just started elementary. My mom is also my father. She works in order to maintain us. So, I left so my mom wouldn't have to worry about giving me money or just to worry about me in general. I know my brothers now need more attention that I do. It wasn't easy leaving all my family and close friends behind, but I only think about the future. I know I’ll look back when I graduate college and realize I did the right thing, that leaving and really focusing in college for 4 years was the biggest and best sacrifice I've done. After I graduate college, I'll know I’ll be able to help my mom and my brothers in every way possible. I don't use my privilege as an excuse to not go to school. Instead, I use it as a motivator to be the first to graduate from college and set an example to my two little brothers.

Another strategy I have in order to be successful in college is to handle the problems in front of me. College is difficult already, but the age I’m at right now is what makes it the hardest. I'm 19, I want to go out and be young and hang out with friends and things like that. I know there is a time and place for everything too, so I don't let it get to me as much as it usually did. I'm always thinking about future things I have to do and that makes me stress out. It has gotten to the point where I've had total breakdowns. Always thinking of all the school work I had to do, all the studying I should be doing, work, and soccer. I have a lot set on my plate and a lot more to come, but I realized that you have to deal with problems in the order they come. It’s almost like a math assignment, you have to start on question 1 in order to get to 2 and 3 and so on. A lot of life's questions aren't always meant to be solved right away. They are answered in time. So I have to do the best of my ability to worry about what is in front of me. There is going to be time to worry about the next question later. It's like Andrade said "what we know is that some roses will still find a way to grow in the concrete". I know there is a way for me to grow up and mature and focus on what I have to focus on first. We all have a passion, some of us know what our passion(s) are. Others still don't know what their passion(s) are. I believe our passions are found since we were little kids. Passion might be something you are just naturally good at. Passion also might be something you really want to do in life. I believe no passion is assigned, it is created by your will to make it happen. The Passion Project is a movie about college students describing their issues and everyday troubles their passion might bring to them. It is not easy following your passion. Friends and or family might support you or disapprove your passion, but people should not let others influence their decisions no matter who they are. It's your life to live, not theirs. Ray from The Passion Project movie says it best' "In order to love life you have to find your passion; you have to find what truly makes you happy and when you find what truly makes you happy you got to chase after it; you got to take those risks." If you are forced to do something unwillingly in life, it's most probable that you will not put in your best foot. Passion is what drives you. It's your driving force behind everything. Without the passion and love to do something, there is nothing. It's easy for me to do and follow my passion, but for others it might be difficult for a lot of reasons.

One reason why somebody might not follow their passion is because their family won't allow them to. I have a number of friends who dream and want to do something that their parents don't allow them to do. One of my best friends has always wanted to become a policemen, but when his parents found out he was going to sign up for the police academy straight after high school, they were furious! Both his parents successfully practice law in Southern California. So they want their son to practice law as well, they want it to run in the family. I understand that my friend’s parents want him to be successful in life and not have to worry about money and everything in his future, but in reality practicing law isn't going to keep my friend happy. He wants to do his own thing, he wants to live his own life. He wants to become a police officer. So he had to choose, should he go against his parents and be what he wants to be? Or, should he obey his parents? To be happy in life? Or, should he be miserable the rest of his life and dwell on it? The Passion Project movie makes a funny, but a true contradiction. "Parents say, "Follow your dreams, do what you love..." Then when you turn 18 as if some kind of ritual they say, "Silly child, dreams are not realistic and love is not practical...”" Why is it that we are lied to while young and then told the cold truth when we are older? Are you telling me dreams and everything else is all based on lies? Why not just tell us the truth since the beginning to prevent the disappointment?

Another reason why someone might not follow their passion is because they might not have the privilege to. As a U.S. born citizen, I am extremely blessed already. I have the right to free speech, I have the right to an education, and I have the right to be successful. Sometimes we are caught up in school, homework, drama, work, and other everyday moments that we don't stop and think about how lucky we are. We don't stop and realize what we already have because we are already too busy thinking what luxuries we want to buy next. Don't get me wrong I like to buy myself luxuries as well, but we to realize how privileged we are to even be able to think about the luxuries we want. Others are not as privileged as we are. Other countries are still fighting for human rights. As Marcus Aurelius once said, "When you arise in the morning, think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive - to breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love." To be passionate is for everyone, but to have the actual privilege to pursue your passion is not for everyone. People would literally kill to be as fortunate as we are. People need to realize that every day is an opportunity to make your passion come true. Whether it's playing sports, singing, dancing, drawing, school etc... We have the golden opportunity to seize the moment. Focusing the Lasers is a movie created by two Chabot College students exploring the kinds of students that attend college. The movie characterizes six types of students: visitors, wanderers, explorers, seekers, dreamers, and lasers. The ultimate goal of a student is to get to the laser phase. Which means they "have a good idea of what they want to do, they have a lot of momentum going towards their pathways, and they have a good sense of the culture in college". Many students are in the other categories because they don't know what they want to do in life or budget cuts took their classes away. The situation doesn't matter, everyone can become a "laser" student.

I think that I fall into the "laser" category. I got a good sense of the college culture and I’m about to start my 4th semester this fall. I knew what I wanted to study way before I started college. I didn't know where I wanted to transfer to at first, but right before I began my first semester last fall I took a tour at the University of San Francisco. I knew that this is the school I wanted to be at. Everything about it was great. I set up a counseling at USF and I told them how interested I was in attending their school. They gave me a lot of info and gave me a guide of classes to take at Chabot in order to be able to transfer within two years. So that's what I am doing now. I'm full of motivation and ambition. It just so happens that my soccer coach at here at Chabot graduated from USF with a full ride soccer scholarship, so I have a totally credible letter of recommendation coming my way. I just have to really focus and get my act together and I’ll be able to play and study at USF. It's like one of the laser kids said, "There is no easy way out. There just one route to get to the place you want to be". I feel good about being in this category because I know I’m doing the right thing and I’m doing something I know I can. I just have to not give up and try the hardest I can. We've talked about how people explore their passions and what strives them. Now, one could asked themselves, what happens when someone is not passionate about what they’re doing? Does it affect others? In what ways may it affect others? Positive? Negative? Or maybe even both? Jeff Bliss is a high school dropout who realized that education is key for his future. So he decides to go back to school and move forward, but becomes angry when he shows up to class to a teacher that just does the minimal. As Jeff says, she only hands out packets and expects the students to do the rest. She does no sort of interaction with her students. So Jeff finally decides to speak up for himself and stand against his teacher. Unknowingly, Jeff also does it for others who were most likely too afraid to speak up because they felt that nothing would be done about the problem. There is a lot of reasons why Jeff may have reacted like this.

One of the reasons why I think Jeff reacted like this is because he felt his education was being taken as a joke. I f a teacher doesn't interact with students, students will become uninterested. Jeff says "All you done is sit there and hand out freaking packets." This statement shows how Jeff feels disturbed about his teacher not really doing any teaching. Jeff also says "if you want to motivate them you got to get up and touch these kids’ hearts". This is an example of an implied duty a teacher inherits when he/she decide to become a teacher. A lot of students come from different backgrounds and situations. We are all no born in the perfect family or situation. In some ways, a teacher has to find a way to connect with her/his students to really get to them. It can be through finding their passion or weakness, starting from there and working towards their goals. Passion is like a pushing force. It's like it gives us something to look forward to. So if our education is not passionate enough or whoever is instructing is not in some way being credible towards students, students will begin to become careless about their education and see it as something that is not important in life.

Another reason why I think Jeff reacted like this is because he didn't want others education to be taken away as he felt his was. He already had his being taken as a joke, he probably didn't want others education to be taken as a joke. As a student, to be taken as a joke is the most hurtful and disrespectful thing. It gives us no sort of motivation to even try to go to school or even do homework. When people decide to become teachers, a tremendous amount of responsibility is given towards them. They are in charge of not only teaching, but in my opinion, of also of inspiring students. Inspiring them that school is vital and a key to success. If teachers are not being inspirational towards students, they are only pushing them away. As Jeff said it, "you got to get up and touch the kid’s heart". If teachers are only there because the only good job they could reach, then they are in the wrong position to handle "my countries future".

The last reason why I think Jeff reacted like this is because he felt he had to speak up. I f you think about how many situations there has been where you felt a teacher is being lazy and not compassionate about others, there is probably millions of stories out there about this sort of situation. Especially in four year colleges. I've heard stories of professors just assigning homework to their students and not speaking to them or trying to connect to them in any way.  Yes, one can make the argument that it is not up to teachers to try and do extra to connect with students. That they are supposed to just show up and say what students are supposed to do and that students are just supposed to suck it up and do what they have to do. That idea seems irrelevant towards education. The big idea of education is that we're supposed to broaden our minds, how are we supposed to broaden our mentality when our teachers aren't doing what their supposed to? Last time I checked, the word "teacher" had the word "teach".
Jeff finally took the opportunity to speak up not only for himself, but for those millions of students that were too afraid to speak up. Every action has a consequence, good or bad. Jeff has definitely in my opinion, opened the eyes of a lot of school districts about this sort of "teaching technique”. People can argue that education is not perfect. There is a lot of flaws in our education system. But, what can we do about it? Should we just point fingers and blame students? Should we blame the faculty for the low test scores? No, any rational person knows that pointing fingers gets people nowhere. This is a very touchy subject, especially since its education we are talking about here. "Education is the most powerful which you can use to change the world." said Nelson Mandela. So, who should have the right to critique education? Teachers? Students? Or maybe even both?

I think that students should be able to critique education because we're are the ones who are being taught the education. We progress through education and if the education we're receiving has flaws or if doesn't quite get to students, then the idea will just fly in and out of our brains. The big picture won't really get to us. As William Butler Yeats once said, "Education is not the filling of a pail, but the lighting of a fire". Students should be able to critique, but not critique just because we have a mouth. Instead of just putting down education, we should instead offer ideas and ways to make it better not just for our self's, but for the benefit of others as well. Should every student be allowed to say something? What about bad students? First of all, there is no such thing as bad students. Each student is different, so should students critique themselves?

I think that students should be able to critique themselves, if we critique ourselves, we would first of all point out our weaknesses. When we constructively criticize ourselves, we work on our own issues. And that means that we won't point out others that might have the same issues, because we feel the pain and know what others might be going through. Life is full of challenges and obstacles. When you know someone that is going through the same problem you once went through, you are more likely to help others out. You will seem credible to others and they will take your advice into consideration. I wouldn't take advice about school from someone who didn't go to school.


Into The Wild



Into The Wild is a story about a privileged boy named Christopher McCandless who decides to runaway and disappear after he graduates from Emory University of Atlanta in 1990. It's a little odd that on the cover of the book it says he dies, which is like the biggest spoiler alert ever in the history of spoiler alerts. I think that John Krakauer, the author, does it on purpose. I believe that he does it in order for us to not to try and figure out how Chris died, but why he chose to do all he did. He had it made, he graduated from college, his parents had money which meant he had money. So why did he do it? A lot of people would kill to be as privileged as he was in the book, but he chose to let it all burn to the ground as if it did not matter to him. How does the actions of Chris relate to passion and privilege?

After reading this book and after learning about the life Chris had. I was beyond mad. Who just decides to just get up one day just run away? He had already gone through college, he was set. His parents had money so he had money. Why did he decide to do it? It's as if he didn't care at all. It seems as if he didn't care about it. He also died at a very young age. He was full of privilege, he pretty much had it all. Maybe this is where the privilege and passion goes into play. Maybe he didn't want to go to school and then work for the rest of his life until he died. It's ironic how Chris ditches his car and burns all his money, but ends up getting rides from others. He also quits his first job in California when the boss man tell him "you wont be getting paid much here". So he quit because he won't be getting paid, but he burned his money? Maybe he had some sort off monetary problem. His parents did want him to go to Harvard. Maybe that's why he ran away, so he didn't have to disappoint his parents about him not wanting to go to Harvard. He didn't even try to tel his parents that he did not want to go to Harvard so that can't be it. Maybe he didn't even want to go to school period so he decided to leave it all behind and explore. What does that make him, someone who follows their passion?Or an arrogant?

I think that Chris ended up dying because he wanted to follow his passion. Of course, he really died of hunger. What I really mean is that Chris decided to go against societies way of living and decided to do his own thing instead. It is tragic that he dies yes, but his death has a bigger picture rather than just him dying. He didn't care about education, that was acceptable by me because it wasn't like he tried to convince others that education was not important. It might of just not been his thing, he probably didn't like school and only did it so he would get his parents off his back about it. Chris friend Westerberg tries to determine what happened to Chris that made him do all this. Westerberg says "Sometimes he tried too hard to make sense of the world... a couple of times I tried to tell him it was a mistake to get too deep into that kind off stuff". He did all this traveling and learned all these new thing for what? So he could die? It's ridiculous because first of all he was very young and had a lot of living to do and second, he died because he followed his passion. He may have been content with the actions he chose to do, but to me, it seemed like a really good waist of resources he was handed down. "When we asked him why he did all that he had done, he said he didn't need the money." said Jan Burres who picked up Chris along a Oregon highway. It's almost like when you don't finish your food and your parents remind you that others aren't as blessed to be eating the warm meal your eating. 

Focusing the Lasers


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Focusing The Lasers is a movie created by two Chabot College students exploring the kinds of students that attend college. The movie characterizes six types of students: visitors, wanderers, explorers, seekers, dreamers, and lasers. The ultimate goal of a student is to get to the laser phase. Which means they "have a good idea of what they want to do,  they have a lot of momentum going towards their pathways, and they have a good sense of the culture in college". Many students are in the other categories because they don't know what they want to do in life or  budget cuts took their classes away. The situation doesn't matter, everyone can become a "laser" student.

I think that I fall into the "laser" category. I got a good sense of the college culture and i'm about to start my 4th semester this fall. I knew what I wanted to study way before I started college. I didn't know were I wanted to transfer to at first, but right before I began my first semester last fall I took a tour at the University of San Francisco. I knew that this is the school I wanted to be at. Everything about it was great. I set up a counseling at USF and I told them how interested I was in attending their school. They gave me a lot of info and gave me a guide of classes to take at Chabot in order to be able to transfer within two years. So that's what I am doing now. I'm full of motivation and ambition. It just so happens that my soccer coach at here at Chabot graduated from USF with a full ride soccer scholarship, so I have a totally credible letter of recommendation coming my way. I just have to really focus and get my act together and i'll be able to play and study at USF. It's like one of the laser kids said, "there is no easy way out.. there just one route to get to the place you want to be". I feel good about being in this category because I know i'm doing the right thing and i'm doing something I know I can. I just have to not give up and try the hardest I can.

Nondestructive Criticisms



People can argue that education is not perfect. There is a lot of flaws in our education system. But, What can we do about it? Should we just point fingers and blame students? Should we blame the faculty for the low test scores? No, any rational person knows that pointing fingers gets people no where. This is a very touchy subject, especially since it's education we are talking about here. "Education is the most powerful which you can use to change the world." said Nelson Mandela. So, who should have the right to critique education? Teachers? Students? Or maybe even both?

I think that students should be able to critique education because we're are the ones who are being taught the education. We progress through education and if the education we're receiving has flaws or if doesn't quite get to students, then the idea will just fly in and out of our brains. The big picture won't really get to us. As William Butler Yeats once said, "Education is not the filling of a pail, but the lighting of a fire". Students should be able to critique, but not critique just because we have a mouth. Instead of just putting down education, we should instead offer ideas and ways to make it better not just for our self's, but for the benefit of others as well. Should every student be allowed to say something? What about bad students? First of all, there is no such thing as bad students. Each student is different, so should students critique themselves?

I think that students should be able to critique themselves, If we critique ourselves, we would first of all point out our weaknesses. When we constructively criticize ourselves, we work on our own issues. And that means that we won't point out others that might have the same issues, because we feel the pain and know what others might be going through. Life is full of challenges and obstacles. When you know someone that is going through the same problem you once went through, you are more likely to help others out. You will seem credible to others and they will take your advice into consideration. I wouldn't take advice about school from someone who didn't go to school.  




Where I Come From

Let me dream, dream about miracles. 
Where I come from, forgets no one.
When I fly, it's without wings.
- So if they ask me what I believe in, I say this moment!

We all have a different story behind us. Some of us were fortunate enough to be born into a great amount of privilege. Most of us, unfortunately, were not. We all come from a different background, ethnicity, race, gender, and family. Something that we all do have in common is passion. We all have something we are passionate about. It may be that we are different about what we are passionate about, but, passion is passion. As Frank Turner once said, "It doesn't matter where you come from, it matters where you go". Success is something I want to achieve in life. But, how do we describe success? Does everyone have the same definition of success? Success is different in every aspect.

One of the things I want to be successful is in school. Now, being successful in school is getting to class on time, doing homework everyday, studying everyday, and trying my hardest everyday. There might be other things that may interfere with school like, for me, soccer and work, but I try my hardest and give it everything I got. I think that education is the only way out of "the concrete" Andrade talks about so much. Education is what defines your future. Some people get lucky and become successful without education like Bill Gates, founder of Microsoft, Harvard's most successful drop out who said "I guess that makes me valedictorian of my own special class... I did the best of everyone who failed". I'm not as creative as Bill Gates is, but I know that through education I can become successful. Education can help anyone achieve their dreams and pursue their future.

Another thing that I want to be successful in is soccer. Soccer has been a very important part of my life. I know I can have a career out of it. I've been exposed a lot through soccer with my club team. I also traveled to a lot of states because of it. It's perfect because soccer keep me in check when I tend to be lazy in school. I'd love to play professional soccer, it's one of my goals and dreams. It's really hard to be pro at anything we all know that. A lot of famous soccer players that got injured and were not allowed to play anymore didn't have anything to fall back on because they dropped out of school to become a full time soccer player. I don't want to make the same mistake as them. I want to have something to fall back on just in case I do go pro and end up with a career ending injury. "Education first", says my coach Tony Igwe, "You are all ambassadors of this school, but you all know you need to focus on your studies as well, get a degree". I know education is above all, If I didn't know any better, I would of dropped out of school and would of focused on soccer a long time ago. I'm lucky and blessed enough to have more than one plan though. iI just have to work hard and wish for a little luck.

Privilege and who you are is definitely tied together. Some are lucky to be born into a life full of privilege. Others, like me, can't complain. I can't sit and complain about how it sucks to be unprivileged as others. If I were to do that, I might miss the opportunity to become privileged. I can't dwell on it and try to find out with me out of everyone else, that would get me nowhere and make me look like everyone else. I want to tell stories to my grandchildren and explain to them how hard it was to grow up, but how I manage to get it all together and move forwards and not backwards. We all have the opportunity to move forward, only the lazy sit there and wonder when their time will come.


What Makes My College Life Dificult



Stepping out of high school, I thought college was going to be hard, but not this hard. College to me has been anything but easy. It has been a very eye opening experience so far and has expanded my mentality a significant. All the countless amount of hours spent doing homework and studying for tests. The loss of sleep due to all those countless hours of homework. Feeling tired at soccer practice because of all those countless hours of homework. Stressing about how to pay for college. Which impact my performance of game days. If I could use a quote to describe college it would be this quote by Joseph P. Kennedy, "When the going gets tough, the tough gets going". I'm just siting here wondering when the tough will get going! Being a full time student athlete and not being financially privileged or even privileged is not easy. There's nothing I can do about that. The only thing I can do is "have the tenacity to grow in the concrete and reach out towards the sun." I can only make the hours count.

One of the things that has definitely made college hard for me is capital. College is very expensive. Paying for classes, paying for textbooks, paying for school supplies and school necessities  it's very expensive. Financial aid is a lot of help, but it won't cover other things like food, clothing, and basic everyday needs. In order to be able to afford college you might need to get a part time job. So you get a part time job, which usually starts paying you at eight dollars. So you being to get money and having a little extra cash in your pocket. Don't forget you need to pay for gas for your car to get to school or to get to work, and pay your insurance, and pay any car maintenance. Maybe you need to get up really early to catch the bus and buy your monthly bus pass. You have all this going on, and you suddenly realize... When are you going to have time to do your homework? When are you going to have time to study for that big math final? It is hard to try and balance everything out. Oh I forgot to add, when are you going to sleep and eat? "I hardly have time for anything, I am under a tight schedule." said my friend Juan, who works, is a full time student, and is a athlete at Chabot College. "I'm really stressed about everything, I just need to do whatever is in front of me and not worry about the rest until I have to do the rest later". Statistics show that "the annual family income of more than 47% of undergraduates is less than $40,000." according to the The Chronicle of High Education's almanac. So, you see that a lot of students don't have another option. They must work in order to pay for college. That has certainly been the situation for me.

Another thing that has made my college experience difficult has to be being a athlete. I am currently a soccer player for Chabot's Mens soccer team. It also has not been easy. I've played soccer since I discovered I was pretty good at it, I was 12. Soccer has been something that has helped me through all my years of school. Since high school, I've had to keep a certain grade point average or higher in order to become eligible to play. So, it has been like a little reminder in my head to do another hour of homework. Playing soccer for Chabot has been great. We practice everyday for 3 hours. We have our home games which are on Fridays and our away games which are on Tuesdays. Away games are better, but the traveling is horrible! Being stuck in traffic at 7 p.m. after playing a full 90 minutes is not fun. I always remember sitting on the bus complaining on all the homework I have to do when I get home, and being physically drained does not help! All the running and fitness we have to do is astonishing, but you have to do what you have to do. My coach always reminds us that studies come first over everything, so that thought always runs in my head while i'm running. I know that playing soccer has a very big impact in school because I can get scouted to a 4 year University. So I know I have to give it my best on and off the field.

One strategy I have in order to be successful in college is to forget about my privilege and do what I can. I come from a hard background. I left my hometown to go to college. I left because I knew there was going to be too many distractions at home. I have cousins that took a years off after high school to be lazy and do whatever they want. I ask them now if they regret it and one of them said "yes, I should of just kept my momentum going. Now, i'm playing catch up while almost all my friends are done with school." I also left because I wanted my family not to worry about me. I have two younger brothers. One just started middle school and the other just started elementary. My mom is also my father. She works in order to maintain us. So, I left so my mom wouldn't have to worry about giving me money or just to worry about me in general. I know my brothers now need more attention that I do. It wasn't easy leaving all my family and close friends behind, but I only think about the future. I know i'll look back when I graduate college and realize I did the right thing, that leaving and really focusing in college for 4 years was the biggest and best sacrifice I've done. After I graduate college, I'll know ill be able to help my mom and my brothers in every way possible. I don't use my privilege as an excuse to not go to school. Instead, I use it as a motivator to be the first to graduate from college and set a example to my two little brothers.

Another strategy I have in order to be successful in college is to handle the problems in front of me. College is difficult already, but the age i'm at right now is what makes it the hardest. I'm 19, I want to go out and be young and hangout with friends and things like that. I know there is a time and place for everything too, so I don't let it get to me as much as it usually did. I'm always thinking about future things I have to do and that makes me stress out. It has gotten to the point were I've had total breakdowns. Always thinking of all the school work I had to do, all the studying I should be doing, work, and soccer. I have a lot set on my plate and a lot more to come, but I realized that you have to deal with problems in the order they come. Its almost like a math assignment, you have to start on question 1 in order to get to 2 and 3 and so on. A lot of life's questions aren't always meant to be solved right away. They are answered in time. So I have to do the best of my ability to worry about what is in front of me. There is going to be time to worry about the next question later. It's like Andrade said "what we know is that some roses will still find a way to grow in the concrete". I know there is a way for me to grow up and mature and focus on what I have to focus on first.

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

High School Student Teaches the Teacher a Lesson!



"Indeed it may be your paycheck, but this is the future of my nation'"

We've talked about how people explore their passions and what strives them. Now, one could asked themselves, what happens when someone is not passionate about what their doing? Does it affect others? In what ways may it affect others? Positive? Negative? or maybe even both? Jeff Bliss is a high school dropout who realized that education is key for his future. So he decides to go back to school and move forward, but becomes angry when he shows up to class to a teacher that just does the minimal. As Jeff says, she only hands out packets and expects the students to do the rest. She does no sort of interaction with her students. So Jeff finally decides to speak up for himself and stand against his teacher. Unknowingly, Jeff also does it for others who were most likely too afraid to speak up because they felt that nothing would be done about the problem. There is a lot of reasons why Jeff may have reacted like this.

One of the reasons why I think Jeff reacted like this is because he felt his education was being taken as a joke. I f a teacher doesn't interact with students, students will become uninterested. Jeff says "All you done is sit there and hand out freaking packets." This statement shows how Jeff feels disturbed about his teacher not really doing any teaching. Jeff also says "if you want to motivate them you got to get up and touch these kids hearts". This is an example of an implied duty a teacher inherits when he/she decide to become a teacher. A lot of students come from different backgrounds and situations. We are all no born in the perfect family or situation. In some ways, a teacher has to find a way to connect with her/his students to really get to them. It can be through finding their passion or weakness, starting from there and working towards their goals. Passion is like a pushing force. It's like it gives us something to look forward to. So if our education is not passionate enough or whoever is instructing is not in some way being credible towards students, students will begin to become careless about their education and see it as something that is not important in life.

Another reason why I think Jeff reacted like this is because he didn't want others education to be taken away as he felt his was. He already had his being taken as a joke, he probably didn't want others education to be taken as a joke. As a student, to be taken as a joke is the most hurtful and disrespectful thing. It gives us no sort of motivation to even try to go to school or even do homework. When people decide to become teachers, a tremendous amount of responsibility is given towards them. They are in charge of not only teaching, but in my opinion, of also of inspiring students. Inspiring them that school is vital and a key to success. If teachers are not being inspirational towards students, they are only pushing them away. As Jeff said it, "you got to get up and touch the kids heart". If teachers are only there because the only good job they could reach, then they are in the wrong position to handle "my countries future".

The last reason why I think Jeff reacted like this is because he felt he had to speak up. I f you think about how many situations there has been where you felt a teacher is being lazy and not compassionate about others, there is probably millions of stories out there about this sort of situation. Especially in four year colleges. I've heard stories of professors just assigning  homework to their students and not speaking to them or trying to connect to them in any way.  Yes, one can make the argument that it is not up to teachers to try and do extra to connect with students. That they are suppose to just show up and say what students are suppose to do and that students are just suppose to suck it up and do what they have to do. That idea seems irrelevant towards education. The big idea of education is that we're suppose to broaden our minds, how are we suppose to broaden our mentality when our teachers aren't doing what their suppose to? Last time I checked, the word "teacher" had the word "teach".
Jeff finally took the opportunity to speak up not only for himself, but for those millions of students that were too afraid to speak up. Every action has a consequence, good or bad. Jeff has definitely in my opinion, opened the eyes of a lot of school districts about this sort of "teaching technique".